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home for the weekend. school has been good, handling the workload. gotten to see andy a lot which is nice. as much as i didnt expect to see him so often, i like that he cares so much to visit and valentines day was perfect...i always liked doing little things for vday, but im not really into the holiday usually, but this year was just better than i could've expected. perfect dinner, perfect gift, and a perfect night...allow me to be sappy, please.
things are different at home. my brother doesnt live here anymore, my dad has a new job and for once im actually happy being home. i guess having somewhere to go all the time at home and not being forced to be here actually makes me like being here.
like i said, im handling the workload better than i thought i guess. hasnt gotten too intense yet. but i guess in the past couple years i've gained some confidence at school. i've always been able to do the school thing, but been more humble about it i guess, or didnt give myself enough credit. but im starting to realize that i can really pave a good path for myself and get to exactly where i want to be if i maintain my focus. it makes me feel comfortable. as much as there is still uncertainty, i have faith ill end up where i need to be. its funny how being with someone older (even if just by a year and a half..it seems like a bigger difference at times) and someone that has lived so much of their life already can make u put ur own life into perspective and start actually seeing the reality of the future.